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YOU KNOW HOW BABIES GET ALL QUIET AND CALM WHEN THEY SEE A MOBILE

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SO APPARENTLY THEY DO THIS BECAUSE THE MOBILE RESEMBLES BIRDS OF PREY FLYING OVERHEAD THAT COULD POTENTIALLY CARRY THEM OFF

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IT’S A EVOLUTIONARY PRECEDENT SO THAT IF THE BABY STAYS STILL THE BIRD WON’T NOTICE AND EAT IT

BABIES DON’T LIKE MOBILES

THEY’RE FUCKING TERRIFIED

I am more than a bit disturbed by how hard I laughed at this. 

I LOVE THIS

(Source: battyy)

So today marks the 4th year after I lost one of the most important people in my life. My best friend Maddy was honestly one of the only people that fully understood me. We had been inseparable since elementary school. That day at the end of our sophomore year started out like any other. We took our history regent, complained about the french one we had a few days later, she came back to my house, and then we went to the movies. It was a couple hours after I got home, right when I was about to text Maddy something weird (I still remember the exact text I didn’t even get a chance to start) when my parents came into my room saying Maddy’s mom called frantic, saying she had been in a really bad ATV accident and they weren’t sure if she was going to live. I broke down and I prayed. I’ve never prayed so hard in my life. My sister came into the room, hugged me, and told me everything was going to be alright. She would make it out of this. And I believed her. Of course I did. I mean, it was my big sister telling me, and it was Maddy we’re talking about so how could it not be true? So I went back downstairs and waited for what felt like eternity. I remember I went into my kitchen to grab a tissue and we got a phone call. My mom walked into the kitchen, crying and shaking her head. I knew. I didn’t want to believe it. I didn’t for a while. But the instance I saw her I was on the floor screaming and crying. My parents tried to comfort me, my brother and sister didn’t really know what to do. I don’t think any of them did. They all knew Maddy, she practically live at my house. I think they were just in shock. My sister asked if having my oldest cousin who went through essentially the same situation coming down would make it better. I said yes, but I knew nothing would make it better. This wasn’t real. The hospital made a mistake and they would call back any minute saying Maddy was fine. I still wait for that call sometimes. I was broken, there was no coming back from that. Now fast forward to today: Am I alright? Maybe not this exact moment, but as a whole, yes I am. I’ve picked up the pieces and kept pushing on. People always say that it gets better and it will all be okay. And all I have to say is to that is bullshit. Losing someone is never okay. It just gets easier to manage. The pain is still there. It’s dulled to the point of it feeling more empty than painful (most days at least), but it’s there. Now I see my friends talking about their best friends and I’m happy for them, I really am, but I also feel a twinge of pain every time they are brought up. Because everyone gets to keep their best friend, but I lost mine at the age of 16. I don’t really know why I’m saying all this on here. Maybe because I’ve never actually expressed my feeling on the matter beyond “this isn’t fair.” But that’s the thing, life isn’t fair. It kicks your ass. It leaves you feeling like no reason to go on anymore. It makes you want to give up. But you can’t. If there’s one thing this taught me it’s that life cannot be taken for granted. That’s why most things don’t bother me; because I’m trying to live my life to the fullest and find joy everywhere it could be found. I’ve been told that I’m someone who’s always laughing and smiling and happy about something. I guess that means I’m doing my job right. But I didn’t do it all alone. I had Maddy’s help. Even now as I’m writing this I can feel her with me. The about of joy and the life lessons she has brought to me are incredible and I owe so much to her. I don’t know if anyone is even going to read this, it doesn’t even matter to me if they do. I just needed to get everything I’ve had bottles up inside out somehow. The last thing I have to say is: Maddy, I love you more than I can express and I miss you everyday. Something happens each day that I wish I could talk to you about. You were basically my other half and I will always love you <3

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